Patti

If Patti left me I would not really know what to do with myself. I am sure I could move on but, really, it would hurt every day. I am sure if she did leave it was because I did something uber stupid. I am prone to doing uber supid things so I would believe it.

Patti knows me better than I know myself most times. I know I should propose to her and seal the deal but there are 2 things holding me back.

1. Money - no money for a ring and no money for a wedding.
2. Fear - I fear that once married she would find a flaw that had otherwise not been found before and she would be like; "This jive turkey is a piece of shit. I could go get myself a real man that can take care of me."

Oh well, I guess I will just have to do my best and let it sort itself out later.